today

life feels so meaningless these days. you get a few minutes of good feeling then fall back into meaninglessness again.

well...a few seconds has effectively ruined my day. ok. mum's just come in and scolded me for showing andrew a video of something. and apparently it's my fault cos i'm distracting him with rubbish on the net when he's supposed to be sleeping early for sch tmr. fuck. for the record, HE's the one that came and asked me to show him the video. you think i'm stupid enough to just show it to him?? he's been watching tv since 5pm with dad. why scold me and not him?? sheer biasness i tell you. my mother is biased against me. anyway, so, ya. after yelling me about that...wait, background first...she wanted me to msg ernie abt uncle mike. i got ernie on msn. anyway, then mum scolds cos i didn't tell her exactly what ernie said. which was pointless anyway cos there wasn't anything that we haven't already told her. *rolls eyes* i SO want to go SEP and get out of the house.

anyway, better stuff. (not that i'm in much mood) children's mass today. that was good. except for a bit in front when the electricity kept shorting out. no gloria today cos no music. muahahaha! the poor second reader had to do her reading without mic. ruth was lucky, the mic only shorted out at her last note. she did really well i think. even though she seemed a bit overexcited going up to the stand. but...well done ruth!!!! "as a litle child" went so well! loved it. of course, could be improved further, but at this stage...beautiful! heard that some of the congregation clapped. on the whole, great mass! great music! yay!!!!!

khoo's homily was b-o-r-i-n-g. as usual. worse for me cos like 75% of it was repeated from what he said during the meeting already. and the rest are just paraphrases of other parts of the bible. can he not try to talk less grandfather stories? i mean...ok, i admit, he's stopped/reduced his church of st ant's stories. so, it's a *bit* of an improvement. haha!

hung around the church with daryl till 1. making noise on the piano and organ. haha! that piano really feels out of tune. but me no perfect pitch can't really tell. the sound just doesn't feel correct. anyway, then went to city hall to meet poh lin, sumi and duan hui. to see photos, pls go to duan hui's site. i haven't uploaded mine yet. lazy. lol. had lunch at marina. hung around the esplanade. duan hui was acting touristy, taking pictures every which way (there are more photos she took which she didn't post). ya well, just walked around the area, chit chatted, acted like tourists. poh lin cut her hair. looks good. yup. it was a good day until the incident above.

still unemployed. but i answered a friendster ad the other day, just for fun to see if it works. for a home typist. someone replied me with a list of things that i could do as a typist. so, i replied for more details. haven't gotten a reply from that person yet. so...see how lah. but i don't really feel the need to find a job that much. it's more to get out of the house and for money. but i'm lazy lah. sigh.

fyi. yesterday, i wore socks for the first time in a long time. and suddenly, my stairs seemed a whole lot more slippery than usual. and i kinda fell down the stairs. tripped and missed a few steps. and today, i've got a nice swelling on my foot, like something heavy dropped on it. haha! doesn't hurt if you don't poke it. and to think i thought i would get the first sprained ankle of my life yesterday. lol.

all those who are totally anti-da vinci code, stop reading here. i wanna rant abt it.

i wanna talk abt "the da vinci code again. the movie has opened. it's such a controversial prickly movie. but i don't see why lor. i mean, like i said before, i think the whole thing is being overhyped. poh lin says she's watched and enjoyed the movie but hasn't read the book. she likes it cos it's got solid content that makes you think, not just mindless watching. isn't that a good thing? something that challenges what you take for granted all the time? rather than just blindly swallowing up something that someone else feeds you. yes you may say that "da vinci code" is blind swallowing too, but is it? between what the church says and what dan brown says, which is the one that you take without questioning?

i don't understand why "the da vinci code" as a book is drawing such hype either. there are lots of other books that are just as, if not more, controversial than the da vinci code. for eg, i own a book that suggests that jesus was a magi (wise man/magician) whose source of power was the possession of the head of john the baptist. belief is/was that if a person A dies brutally, like john baptist, if someone else B removes the head of A, A's spirit will be controlled by B and B can now do 'miracles' using spirit intervention. now you tell me, isn't that worse than the suggestion that jesus was married? hello? married isn't a bad thing (ref genesis). in fact, a married jesus with a family is a whole lot more appealing to the common folk. after all, how can a single jesus understand what it means to be in a relationship? to understand the trials of raising a family? it all seems too perfect to be true. quoted (fictional): "holy mother of the redeemer, if only once i could see baby throw-up stains on your lovely blue garments, if only once i could see your own palms itching to slap the saviour in his bawling face, then maybe i would not now feel like a piece of human crap. you goddamn eternal virgin, if you would wipe that insipid pastel smile off your face for one moment and look at me like we were in the same shoes, then i might not despair."

it's pretty clear that people who are condemning "the da vinci code" so much, even before it was made into a movie (which btw, i think that it's only made into a movie cos it's such a controversial book and the powers that be want to cash into it) are not well read. open your freaking eyes and look around. why are you condemning a fiction book when there are numerous other non-fiction books around that claim far worse things? so, by all means, go on and damn "the da vinci code". you're just showing how closed minded you are. go on and excommunicate me. long live controversy.

all for now.


p.s. for some reason, i feel a whole lot better now after writing about "the da vinci code"




mood: sarcastic
listening to: deliver us - prince of egypt